I am frustrated, and maybe writing this will let me put it all in perspective. As some people know I'm working a lot, and probably too much if it were long term. I'm trying to complete my internship and work which usually puts me at a little over 50 hours per week. Yes, I know that people do this all the time, but they are superhuman. When I started by busy schedule I thought it would be okay, I would usually leave around 7:30 and get home around 7. Through out the past month though, I have realized that my life doesn't just consist of working, when you pile extra training, volunteering, appointments and meetings on top of it, which puts me getting home about 9 p.m. every night. I am tired.
My house is an absolute disaster.
I haven't gone grocery shopping in who knows how long, haven't cooked in about a month and I'm pretty sure the people at Wendy's know me by name. I have laundry up to my ears, an unmade bed and an unwalked dog. On top of it I am gaining weight, quickly. No, I don't think I'm fat, but I am really struggling with this. It's so hard to eat healthy when you are constantly running and forget about going to the gym early in the morning or late at night. I try so hard to get up in the morning, but I literally can't drag myself out of bed. I really feel like I am failing; as a wife, person, friend, and pet owner. How do all you busy people do it? Every day? I admire you if you can do it.
Now you might be thinking that I have the weekends to get caught up, well I thought that too. I have found that they are filled with trips, football games, family activities, and our friends. All of these things are wonderful things, but what I wouldn't give to have a Friday night, Saturday, and Sunday to clean my house, go grocery shopping, weed my garden, and walk my dog. I told Jeremy next weekend I'm calling in sick to life, we'll see if it happens. We are actually going on a fun trip this weekend, kind of like a couples retreat, which will allow me to momentarily forget about other stresses...hopefully!
Well, that's enough complaining. I am very lucky in the fact that I have the most wonderful husband in the world. I can home tonight to a clean kitchen and it was pure bliss. He is so sweet and does anything he can to lighten my load even though he has a busy schedule too. I Love You Jeremy Scott. Thank you for every thing you do.
It sounds funny saying it, but I am so excited for school to start and things to slow down! This won't last forever, thank goodness and we can get on with our lives. I really am blessed to have all of the things and people in my life that I do. They are a great source of support and happiness. But if you see my August 23rd and I weigh 400 lbs. don't judge me : )