I know just a few short weeks ago I was feeling about the opposite of this, but I think now that everything is wrapping up and I have an actual job to go to everything is starting to gain a very satisfying perspective. I really can't believe it's been 4 years. I remember getting off of the campus shuttle on the first day of class. I had no idea where I was and just kind of wandered. I barley made it to my first class, biology, boo. I found it by walking around, following large groups of people, walking into the classroom and hoping that I was in the right place. Worked well the first time, not the second.
After the biology class from hell and missing my second class, I was in tears. I remember thinking that there was no possible way I could EVER make it though college alive. Four years was so far away, if I could even get done that soon. I was completely overwhelmed and I'm pretty sure I called my mom to tell her that I was dropping out and coming home that night. I am then sure that she told me to "stop being such a boob". I've never quite understood that phrase...
But here I am, at the end of my undergraduate career. Yes, I may have procrastinated a little too much, recieved and "e" in human anatomy {double hell}, I even escaped with a decent 3 point something GPA, and experience a bad case of senior-itis for the past 1.5 years, but I've grown in so many ways too. I've met some amazing people, become slightly educated {at least in health promotion}, and have developed my own unique views, opinions, and ideas - I see this as a good thing, my husband may beg to differ - as cheesy as it sounds, I have blossomed, and I'm pretty darn happy with how I've turned out. I made it through in four years, alive. I feel like a true bonafide grown-up.
What's next now? I really have no idea...I want to get Jeremy through school, but then who knows? Maybe babies, maybe a Master's, maybe world travels. All I have to say is come what may! I'll take it!
To celebrate my grown-up graduation-ness I went to MAC and got myself a lipstick {because, as I'm sure you know, little girls don't wear lipstick, but grown up lady graduates do!}
Side note: when I was at the MAC counter the salesgirl told me that I wouldn't look so washed out in everything if I would wear some foundation, bronzer, eyeshadow, and blush. I then preceded to tell her that I was, in fact, wearing ALL of those things. Then she said, "Oh, well, then you should stop being scared of make-up and put more on." Thanks lady, I'll see what I can do!
Next stop, May 5, 2011 -- Graduation here I come!!!
yay CHELS!!! wahoo!!! what a happy day, there is not a better feeling! and heck with the mac counter lady...boo! :)
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